Sometimes I need a slap with reality to get my attention so I can see the truth of the matter. I’m always waiting for the “perfect moment” or “when things are right” to get something done. I want to wait to paint until I get the studio back in perfect shape and all of mom’s stuff out of the way or I have the studio at TMBR completed…I need to wait until I have the right amount of money before I can start doing things that I enjoy. When I have the perfect plan, I’ll start doing that…
All this waiting for perfection has left me physically broken and emotionally drained…and nothing is done. I caught myself not wanting to draw because it wouldn’t be good enough because I haven’t been practicing…wtf? My logic has morphed into fuzzy logic…you know, that thought process that convinces you it makes sense like the voice on one shoulder that says it makes perfect sense to drive past a cop at 90 miles an hour when he has his radar pointed right at you…that fuzzy logic…
I just found out my knee isn’t perfect either. Anyone aging knows the pain of arthritis and degenerative disorders of the muscular/skeletal system. How many of you are waiting for the pain to go away or for the right moment to do something about it?
The time isn’t right…the The situation is not perfect…I have’t done enough yet…BS! I’m setting an appointment with a surgeon to go over my options. I’m going to paint this weekend! My garden planter beds aren’t done but I’m going to plant anyway!
I would rather have something done imperfectly than have nothing done with perfection! How many other things have I not done? OMG…the list is too long and overwhelming! So many articles I was going to write when everything else was perfect…I’m sorry I have not taken care of you, my followers. I have neglected you and many other things in my life waiting for that perfect moment…worried my writing wasn’t right or the thoughts weren’t complete…my apologies…I’m not perfect…but I will make an effort to be here and participate in the life I have been blessed with and stop trying so damn hard to be perfect.
No more waiting! Let the flaws fly! – Love and Hug!