The recent news of the death of Robin Williams has hit home in such a profound way…thoughts of mom and her deep despair…the thoughts of another day looking at life from the half full cup and knowing there are people out there that can’t find the glass…Depression sucks for those in the midst and those on the fringe looking in…

What does it feel like from the heart of the eternally wounded? Slipping into despair from a world that from the outside seems so blessed and rewarded…can it really be so hopeless? Trying to wrap my head around what this pain would be like…does it hurt sharply? Is it a dull ache that never seems to go away? I don’t understand.

I feel pain, I feel overwhelmed with emotion when I hear news of war and see images of death and pestilence…the unending pressure on my heart feels as if it will explode with sadness…but I smile anyways…am I the crazy one? I know I can’t change the world or even my own mom…but I can smile and I can pick up my own feet and go thru the motions…it doesn’t make the pain go away in an instant…or a day…and depending on the impetus the motions may have to suffice for more than a month or two…but the motions move me forward…

Forward is the only way to keep moving. Look forward to the opportunities yet to come the moments to be had and the possibilities of what might be if you only keep moving forward. Auto pilot is fine if the plane stays in the air…it will eventually reach land and the sights and smells of the runway! Hang on! It might be a bumpy landing but the ground will feel strong when you get there…HANG ON!!!! Don’t let the sadness of one day or one moment rule the location of your glass! Find the glass…fill it up and HANG ON!!!! If that seems overwhelming…just smile anyways…you will feel the smile eventually…Give yourself the opportunity to feel it…SMILE ANYWAYS! If for no other reason than to find the eye of another who needs a smile…